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2009-02-28T16:16:00.002+08:00

NEW BLOG!

5 jan 2009 - patch?

2009-01-05T00:58:00.002+08:00

If your heart's not in it for real,
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel,
If love's already gone,
It's not fair to lead me on,
Cause i would give the whole world for you,
Anything you ask of me i'd do,
But i won't ask you to stay,
I'd rather walk away,
If your heart's not in it.

I can't forget neither can i forgive.

1/1/09 - new start

2009-01-01T04:11:00.002+08:00

Was supposed to go Town With Alwyn, Alson & a few others.
Outing was cancelled last mintue.

So made my way down to Bukit Timah,
Where all my Whiskey is.

Sharon, Karen, Wei Qiang, Rong Jun & Gibson.

Drinking with an empty stomach & a straw.
That's why i ended in a back alley,
Getting rid of the toxic in my body.
Yepps.

Shared a cab home with Sharon & Karen.

My world was still spinning when i got home.
Called Alwyn,
So nice of him so stay up for me until i get home.

In the end,
I found out that Alson went to Vivo with Shi qi & gang.
Alwyn went to Marina.
Wa lao.
All last minute de lehs.
Chii~

A new year,
A new start.

Can i forgive & forget?

13 14 dec 2008 - ...

2008-12-15T00:27:00.002+08:00

I made another mistake.
I should never have helped her to even borrow any cash from anybody.

Yea,
She tried to get cash from me,
But didn't manage to.

Okay fine,
I did try to help at first.
But what my friends all told me was right.

Guess i was stupid yea?

She used my name as a mortage.
She borrowed cash from Aunty Lucy.

3 different stories.
3 different persons.
A friend.
A god-mum.
A lover.

Who would you believe?

Hurts so bad.

I should never have helped right from the beginning.

I've done myself in this time.

9 december 2008 - a terrible mistake

2008-12-09T23:59:00.002+08:00

Made a TERRIBLE MISTAKE.

Only 3 sentences repeats in my mind.
"I'm done for."
"No hope."
"It's time for my death."

Dinner & Kbox after work.

I know i'll regret,
So i went.

It wasn't totally because of what Mark said.

I don't wanna make the same mistake again,
I don't like to be given the cold treatment.

Why push me away because you're afraid of something which may not even happen.

6 dec 2008 - 1st month anni

2008-12-06T09:39:00.002+08:00

I'll be waiting.

No matter how long it takes,
I gotta be strong.

5 dec 2008 - zou huo ru mo

2008-12-05T00:38:00.002+08:00

Last night.
Was my fault.

Where can you find a girlfriend who still can sleep peacefully,
When her guy is somewhere out there fighting or god knows what happened to him?

Let me tell you a secret,
You can stop looking.
Cause you've already found her.
That's me.

I won't ask for your forgiveness,
Because,
Even i can't forgive myself.

All i can say now is,
Dear, I'm sorry.

I'm not okay.
I may look alright when i'm in Bugis,
I may look alright when i'm talking to my friends.
But that's only during the day.
But at night,
I would still be alone.

ALONE = EMO

At first i always thought,
My own problems,
I will settle myself.

Then only i found out,
Sometimes i still need others to help me out.

You know when's the best time to get me to hard labour?
When i'm in a bad mood.

Because i won't have any feelings,
As in physically.

I carried the large drawers out of the shop today.
Yup,
That bloody drawer.
Which was always damn freaking heavy to me,
Which i would always drag out.

Now i finally know that its not heavy at all can.
Zzz.

Same goes to the shelf which we put the Ferdoras on.

Yea,
I seriously dunno what the hell am i talking about.

28 november 2008 - quarrel

2008-11-29T00:33:00.001+08:00

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

25 november 2008 - mood swing after leaving bugis

2008-11-26T00:29:00.002+08:00

What the fuck la.

Feeling damn fucking frustrated right now,
For don't know what bloody reason.
Ever since i left Bugis.

Vulgarities are flooding my brain.

Wa lao.
It's not what i want can.
I don't wanna keep silent too alright.

What the hell.

Fuck it la.

21 november 2008 - joyce's fan

2008-11-22T01:06:00.002+08:00

Yea,
It's true that i don't know what are you thinking.
But from the look in your eyes,
When you asked me to bring her fan to you,
It looks like as if you're still longing for her return.

I don't blame you.

She's the person you used to love the most.
What's wrong with bringing her fan home,
Whether as a memorable gift or whatever.

Because avoiding the memories won't make you forget.
Unless you can face the memories & forget them,
That's truely forgetting a person.

Like what you said to me before,
"Don't delete it, if you can't bear to."

If you can't bear to throw the fan away or do whatever you want with it,
Then keep it.

I still remembered that i received the wrong information from a person,
Saying that she texted you.

For that entire day,
I kept thinking that,
If you really wanted to go back by her side,
I'll never blame you.

No matter what,
You still used to love her the most,
You could do anything for her.

Even if she dumped you before,
You would still go back to her side.

Yea,
You did say that i'm the first who could replace her.

I could,
But i have not.

19 november 2008 - getting worst

2008-11-20T01:54:00.002+08:00

5 days.
I thought i was the only who actually noticed.
Yea,
So what if i was feeling miserable for these 5 days.
I cannot let this affect me so much.
Cause there will be more obstacles coming up.

I've been telling myself all day that,
It's bad enough that we don't have time for each other,
Why must i still pull a long face in front of you?
In fact,
I should treasure every minute and every second of the time when i'm with you.

I got to cheer myself up.

It's such a miracle that i'm actually doing this.
Cause i'm a person that won't hide my mood.

I just wanna say that,
I'm really fucking sorry for shouting at you.
Maybe i lost control of my emotions.
I really didn't mean it.
Sorry.

But i'm suuper glad i didn't end up like your ex.

Lastly,
I wanna say,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JASMINE & MIYUBI!

19 november 2008 - crazy over you

2008-11-19T09:12:00.002+08:00

Maybe i shouldn't have said that?
Maybe i've said the wrong thing again.

I don't blame you for doubting,
People doubt others so that they can protect themselves.
Nevermind.
It's..alright..

Family problems have been cleared.
I should stop thinking so much.

Even the slightest goodbye...

15 november 2008 - bottle broke! lesbo

2008-11-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

Suckkky day @ work.

Yea,
So what if i'm like that?
Why can't you accept it?

"Getting from bad to worst"
"Trying out new stuffs"
"Doing illegal things"

Yes,
I do come home very late every night.
But i've been coming home earlier recently.

I cab home every night using my own money.
What's wrong with that?
Yes,
It's a waste of money.
But isn't that what money is used for?

& what the hell do you mean by "Trying out new stuffs"?
That's fucking rude can.

My love life doesn't have to be exactly the same or even similar to yours.
Cause if it is,
I'd rather commit suicide.

"Illegal things"
Yea right.
If it's illegal,
Why don't you call the police & put me in a home or whatever bloody shit?

What the fuck man.

I don't understand why do you guys have so many objections.

No matter what you guys are gonna do to me,
I still won't change my mind.

I've already made up my mind.
& no one can change it.

And damn it,
The small bottle keychain you bought for me,
When you were in Genting,
BROKE!

I don't know how my bloody phone dropped on the stupid floor,
Then..PIANG!!!

Wa lao.
The first thing i thought of was why did it drop.
Was it fate?
Did something happen to you?

That was the reason i kept asking ' Are you alright? '.

14 november 2008 - wen qin

2008-11-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

Left home pretty late today.
Was using the computer this morning.
Reading Wen QIng's blog.

My mood changed, Bohdoh.
For the entire day.

Ting ting & Zhen min kept asking what's wrong.

Yea,
If i didn't read her blog,
My mood wouldn't be like this.

But at least i know the truth.

Maybe i just can't stand that you had been shared & passed down.

No matter what,
The jacket i hug to sleep every night,
The Adidas watch i wear almost everyday,
The person whom i like,
The person whom i concern the most,
All used to belong to someone else.

Yea,
It's really stupid of me actually.

11 november 2008 - sad

2008-11-11T09:30:00.002+08:00

Be brave, my dear.

Truth will reveal itself yea?
You just have to wait,
But how long more?

1 novermber 2008 - waited; over reacted

2008-11-01T11:59:00.000+08:00

I was freaking paranoid today.
Over reacted.
Sorry.

Kenrick & Fayme dropped by today.
My gosh,
Bro!!!
You look so gorgeous wearing the eyeliners.
LOL!

Theresa & her husband popped by too.
Her hair,
So short.
My god.

Haven't seen her in a like damn long time.

After work,
When i was @ the control station.
Received a message from,
Asking where was i.

I thought maybe you were coming for me or something.

Wishing you would appear.
Then i waited.

Even if you told me you were eating @ some place else,
I still waited.

Ki siao.
Wait & wait for half an hour.

Why?
Don't know.

31 october 2008 - jealousy kills

2008-11-01T00:57:00.002+08:00

Tonnes of stuffs happened these few days.

There was a suprise birthday balloon for my Qing Yi.
Happy Birthday!
(:

Then there was ALOT of unhappy stuffs.
Like family, piercings & relationships.

I was in a SUPER BAD MOOD this afternoon.
Because of what?
My piercings.

Wa lao.
Just the thought of it makes my blood boil.

I even feel irritated typing about it can.

NO PIERCINGS = NO LIFE

Damn angry cause i can't do the things that i love,
I've waited for like a damn fucking long time.

Damn it!

I love piercings,

But then how the fuck do you want me to choose between you & piercings?

I can only choose one leh.
CB.

If i choose piercing then i'll be fucking angry cause i'll lose you.
If i choose you then i'll be fucking angry cause i can't pierce.

DAMN FUCKING FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!!!!!!

Like that also cannot.
Like this also cannot,
What the fuck la!

NBKNNCCB.

& i got NOWHERE to take out my anger on!!!

Damn angry right now,
Which also explains the hurtful words.

When a person is angry,
They'll never think clearly,
& say whatever that comes to their mind.
So,

Don't mind me yea?

26 ocotber 2008 - jacet to wen qin

2008-10-27T00:55:00.003+08:00

I was supposed to take Gerrie's jacket from Wen qin today.
But then,
I was thinking.

Why the hell should i pass it to him for her?

No hands, no feet?
Can't you pass it yourself?

I seriously did not want to help her.

& don't know why this put me in a bad mood.

Called Karen & my bro to tell them,
Both told me to ask her to return the jacket herself.

So i did passed her back the jacket.

And was accused of giving a LJB,
And a fucked up attitude.
What the hell.

At night,
Fuck that bloody angmoh.

Bargain bargain bargain.
Damn.

Me:"Hey, I'm making a loss here."
Angmoh:"If you're making a loss, you wouldn't be selling it to me @ such price.
Come on, I'm a salesman, I know about sales. There's no way you're making a loss. How old are you?"
Me:"That's none of you business."

Nbcb knn.

Thankfully,
Jasmine popped by.
I ask her to 'settle' the angmoh for me.

They tried to discuss about the prices.
Jasmine was trying to talk,
But he kept interupting.

He just kept saying,
"Listen for a second."

So i played along.
I shouted.

Me:"Hey, YOU listen for a second!"

I was already damn fucked up.

Me:"You know what? Even if you want to buy the caps,
We wouldn't even sell it to you."
Angmoh:"Why not?"
Jasmine:"We've already lowered the prices..."

I cut her off.

Me:"If you're looking for cheaper prices, You should go somewhere else, Cause you've come to the wrong place, SERIOUSLY!"
Jasmine:"Maybe you could walk around and find something.."

Whatever.
Jasmine was trying to make everything sound nice.
She called Paul for backup.

Angmoh:"Why are you all so mad? Is it because i'm trying to bargain? I didn't come here to argue."
Me:"Yea right, You come in peace."
Angmoh:"Yes! i come in peace."
Me:"Yea, Just like the Aliens that came from Mars."

After alot of talking,
He finally bought the caps.

I took a plastic bag for him.

He touched my shoulder,
He wanted to say something i guess.

Me:"HEY, DON'T TOUCH ME."
Angmoh:"Okay alright,But why are you so mad?"
Me:"Cause i've NEVER seen such kind of customer before."
Angmoh:"Oh, so i'm the first."
Me:"Yea, and thank you for such an WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE."
Angmoh:"Okay, I just wanna say sorry for any unhappiness caused."

Then he left.

NBCB.
It has been a damn freaking long time since i treated a person like that.

Anyhow touch touch.
Wa lao.

Irritated.

It's gonna be a long week,
Gerrie has gone to Genting.

Which means no more dinner after work,
Home sweet home early,
No life @ work.
DIE!

Even though it's just 3 days.
LOL.

If you guys spot a zombie walking around Bugis,
That'll be me.
Don't be scared though.
I'm friendly.
:DDD

25 october 2008 - Frog porridge, Wen qin

2008-10-27T00:44:00.002+08:00

Full shift today.

Lots of visitors today.
Firstly,
Gerrie came for awhile,
Then left for Suntec.

Then Kenrick, Zhi jie, Jason, Yu hing, Rick, Zhi yang & Girlfriend.
O.O
Lol.

Thanks for coming yea?

At night,
Gerrie came back,
Waited for me to knockoff.

Then we went to Suntec to meet up with his sister,
She was waiting for his bro-in-law.

Sky Garden.
Bloody hell,
Wen Qin was there too.
Yea,
She gave that LJB.

Whatever la.
Damn it.

She went home without having dinner with us.

So the 4 of us took a bus to Geylang,
Frog porridge!

I've never tried it before,
So i'd rather not order it.
Had Hor Fun instead.

After dinner,
Cabbed to Aljunied,
Slacked & slacked.

Home @ 3AM.

It was the last day you know.
Can't blame me.
LOL!

24 october 2008 - off day, out with karen, dinner with colleages

2008-10-24T23:59:00.001+08:00

Say Hello to my Conch piercing! :D

Off day!

Met up with Karen,
Headed to Heeren for my piercing.
:DDD
Like finally!

More piercings to be done,
For sure!

Shopped around town & Bugis,
& yes,
We saw something we loved alot.
& it costs $200!

Lol.

We went our seperate ways after shopping in Bugis.

Paul took Me, Gerrie & Jasmine out for dinner,
As promised.
(:

Katong's Laksa.
It was nice though.

Cabbed to Aljunied,
Slacked awhile,
Home @ 1AM.

23 october 2008 - god's decision

2008-10-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

Knocked off @ 6 today,
Planned to get my piercing done.

But then,
The moment i came back from the supermarket with Gerrie's drinks,
It started raining.
Zzz.

No choice,
Accompanied him til he knocked off.

Then headed to Geylang for cigs.
It was still raining can.

We were drenched from head to toe,
Again.

Cabbed to Aljunied for some western food.
Home @ 12:30AM.

*Reaching home later & later each day man =X*

21 october 2008 - back at one

2008-10-22T01:09:00.002+08:00

Karen visited today!
Thanks!

Dinner with Gerrie after work @ Macpherson.
(:

The hawker center had big green dustbins by the road,
Then that stupid asshole bring me walk beside the dustbin,
& it had AT LEAST 6 COCKROACHES running about!!!!!!
Thank god none of them run over my feets.
@.@

And he still had the cheek to laugh.
Wa lao!
Damn disgusting can!!!
Grr..!

See what you've done?
First you want the person to say it,
Now that the person have said it,
You don't know what to answer.
Well done, Eugenie.
*Slaps head*

20 october 2008 - i lyk you; there got bustop mehs?

2008-10-21T00:44:00.002+08:00

Daily morning routine.
Bathe, dry hair, iron clothes, eat, style hair, get dressed.

Noticed the rain when i arrived at Bugis.
I was like 'How to cross the road like this?!'
Yup.

Ended up meeting Gerrie at the control station,
It was a MIRACLE for him to take a train can.
He's forever cabbing all over singapore.

Went to Cold Storage to buy drinks & chocolate,
Then to the food court to get our lunch.
*I was starving*

Left the junction after that,
And to my horror,
It was still raining.

'Damn i wore the WRONG shirt man!'
But then everything was alright,
Cause...
Yea,
Shan't say what yea?

Worked at the Pushcart while Gerrie worked in the shop,
He worked til 3 though.

But came back @ 7 plus.
Ahaha!

Cause we were suppoed to have dinner together after my work.
Ended up dragging Jasmine along.

We came up with another way to fool Jasmine,
We pretended to be a couple.
LOL!

Damn freaking hilarious can!
She actually believed it.
*I think*

Anyway,
We cabbed to Aljunied for Wanton Noodles.

Then eat eat eat.

Jasmine wasn't familiar with the area,
Kept asking when's the last bus,
Then there was this question that she asked.

Jasmine:"Where's the bustop?"

Gerrie:*Points too his nostrils* "Over here lors."
Jasmine:"There got bustop mehs?"

I SWEAR SHE SAW HIM DID THAT!
Then both of us were laughing like hell man.

Sent Jasmine to the bustop,
Then slacked at void deck awhile.

Yup,
We were still laughing at Jasmine,
Laughed til we cried man.
OMG!

Cabbed home after that.

Had quite a long day,
My mood is back to normal too.

I'm UBER TIRED!

19 october 2008 - bad mood; dinner with colleages

2008-10-19T11:59:00.002+08:00

Worked full day with Jasmine.
She was 20 minutes late.
Zzz.

Wasn't in a good mood today too.
Even the china girls next door was asking what's wrong.

Starved for the entire day,
Cause i didn't have any appepitite at first.

Gerrie finally came at 8 plus,
Then there was damn lots of people.
Yea.
I flustered,
Shouted at Jasmine too.
Damn.

Was kinda angry with myself after that,
My mood became even worst.

And the china girls next door said stuffs to Gerrie that made me damn angry.
Yea,
I know it has nothing to do with me.
But they were really too much!

Actually i didn't wanted to go for the dinner with them,
But i still did in the end.

Paul drove us to Macpherson,
But then the store was closed.
Ended up eating in Lavender.
& it was damn squeezie in the car.

And my 4 Xs tio spot by Gerrie.
Nevermind,
I asked for it anyway.

On the way to Lavender,
The entire car was like damn freaking quiet.
Even Gerrie didn't talk.
My goodness.

Anyway,
The food @ Lavender was alright,
Even though i didn't eat much.
Jasmine snatched away my seat!

After eating,
Paul sent us home one by one.
Starting with Gerrie,
Jasmine,
His friend,
& FINALLY ME!

Well,

If you're not gonna say it,

Then i'll just have to make you say it.

18 october 2008 - breakup. night out with gerrie

2008-10-18T23:59:00.002+08:00

Off day today!

Was playing 'Your Call' in the morning,
Then Karen called.
Told her that i would go to look for her at her workplace.

Reached her workplace around 3 plus.
Slacked & accompanied her til 6,
Then i left for Bugis to look for Gerrie.

Thought he was working at the pushcart,
Was thinking of scaring him from behind.
But then Jasmine told me he was working at the shop.
So my plan was ruined.

I made my way to the shop,
His back was facing me.
Ahahaha!
I scared him by grabbing his waist.
:DDD

After that,
For don't know what reason,
I wasn't in a good mood.

Then Gerrie kept asking what's wrong and all.
I just said everything's alright.

Can't blame him since it's the first time he has seen me in a bad mood.

At night,
Paul said he would take all of us out for a treat.
But he postponed it to tomorrow.

Supposed to go for a drink @ CoffeeBean with Karen tonight,
But then had to postponed it to some other day.
Damn freaking sorry man!

So i accompanied Gerrie to Geylang first to buy his cigs.
Damn lot of cars can!
Then we cabbed to Aljunied to eat Wanton Noodles,
But i didn't eat cause i didn't have any appetite.

I cabbed home after that.

Work tomorrow!

P.S.
If you guys are thinking that i have ANYTHING to do with Gerrie,
I just wanna make it clear that both of us are just friends.

18 october 2008 - breakup?

2008-10-18T00:09:00.002+08:00

No.

16 october 2008 - work aljie lesbian

2008-10-16T00:13:00.005+08:00

I drew that!
Alson & his girls :DDD

Have been working for the past few days.

And i do enjoy my job,

Despite that the heat is sometimes quite unbearable.

I love my colleages too.

Gerrie, Paul & Jasmine.

Okay fine, I admit,

Most of the love goes to Gerrie.

Lol!

Me + Gerrie = NO WORK DONE!

Just wanna thank those who specially dropped by for a visit.

Kenrick, Zhi jie & 6 others.

Karen.

------------------------------------------------------

Received a call from Sharon recently.

And yes,

What you guys heard from Jia Ying is true.

I did meet up with her,

And both of us are on good terms again.

I don't care if you backstab me,

Or whatever it is that you wanna do that has anything to do with me.

I have my reasons for my actions.

And if you're afraid that i'll say stuff that shouldn't be said,

Let me tell you this,

I only share my own thoughts & feelings.

Anyway, It has really been a long time already,

Just let it go man.

Why let it bother you til the day you die?

If you can forget about your EXs,

Then why can't you forget about a friend?
Don't say "No way i'm friends with that fucking bitch!".

Fuck that shit okay?
You guys were friends once,

And there's nothing you can do about it.

You know that.

Just face it man.

You gotta move on.

8 oct 2008 - EEWWWW COPYCATS!

2008-10-08T23:31:00.002+08:00

EWWWWWWWWW!
I hate

COPYCATS!!!!!!

Especially those who stole my ideas.

You know who you are.

6 october 2008 - something i need to do

2008-10-06T23:12:00.002+08:00

Have been thinking alot recently,
And i mean about ALOT of stuffs.

I asked a whole lot of questions,
But then i ended answering all of them myself.

I seriously think that i'm getting dumber.
It's either that or i'm just to damn slow in thinking.
Bear with me peeps!

It's like i regret doing this,
Regret saying that,
Regret buying those..
Blah blah blah.

Yea,
I know.
What's life without regrets?

And then,
I just felt that i had to do something.
I had to clear the feelings bottled up inside,
All those problems, true feelings whatsoever.

If not,
I would end up taking it all out on someone.

And that wouldn't be nice,
Now wouldn't it?

It's not that i don't wanna tell you anything.
I just feel that there's no need to?
I don't know la.

Suddenly thinking about all the stupid stuffs,
Makes me so..
I don't know,
Irritated?

It just puts me in a bad mood.

Heck it!
I'm damn frustrated right now.

3 october 2008 - siew yee irritating

2008-10-03T23:03:00.002+08:00

You can call me petty for all i care,
But,
I just simply hate it when people do that.

' What happens in Paris, stays in Paris. '
Damn that sounds familiar now don't it?

The fire is getting hotter,
Causing tonnes of destruction.
Will there be rain?
Or will it just continue to destroy everything in its way.

2 october 2008 - living on a roller coaster

2008-10-02T18:56:00.002+08:00

I just simply love my hair the way it is right now.
Decided not to color it,
And save some cash for my piercings.
(:

Ns are gonna be over soon,
And i have got to get myself a job,
And fast!

Well,
Alot happened recently,
What can i say?
Life's a roller coaster.

27 september 2008 - i wanna call you

2008-09-27T18:43:00.001+08:00

I very much want to call you,
But,
I don't know what to say.
It's weird in fact.

27 september 2008 - " dump me "

2008-09-27T17:13:00.004+08:00

If i had to answer a question for every little action,
I'd rather be immobilised.
Either that or i'd rather give my soul to hell.

To be or not to be,
That is the question.

What's the difference,

Since you were the one who gave me the permission?

The job is already half done.

Somehow i wish i could disappear in this world right now,
And maybe appear again when i'm eighteen.

And i just got fucking irritated again.

I gotta admit,

That line simply pisses me off!

27 september 2008 - "if so, solve it"

2008-09-27T13:44:00.002+08:00

Damn that Mr SMART-ASS!

If everything was that FREAKING SIMPLE,
Why the hell are so many people committing suicide.

Yea yea yea,
Easy for you to say.

Irritated right now.

Maybe i SHOULD go out with them whenever they asked.
Which also have been quite a number of times!

You know what?
Just forget it alright?

---------------------------------------------------------------

Both of you are the last living creatures in the universe,
Who i wanna see calls or texts from.

Hopefully you guys will leave me alone yea?

---------------------------------------------------------------

Was it really coming from the heart?
Or just because you read my post.

26 september 2008 - 60 hours and still counting

2008-09-27T00:52:00.003+08:00

Haven't been in a good mood recently.
Was feeling oh-so-down.
But you wouldn't have known would you?
You probably thought that i was out having FUN with my friends?

I don't even have the bloody mood to catch up with my Chemistry!

Yea,
Don't even start.
I don't know how the hell am i gonna go to school on monday,
Like this.

Sometimes i just simply wish i had a sign board hanging around my neck,
So people wouldn't have to ask that much anymore.
Yes,
It may be lame,
But i truly think that it'll actually work!

25 september 2008 - deep & meaningless

2008-09-25T01:32:00.002+08:00

God gave me countless of chances,
But i chose to give them up,
Time and time again.
When will i ever learn?

Change for the better?
It ain't as easy as you think.

Change for the worst?
Just give me a second.

Just please don't be like the 3,
Who expected me to change my attitude in 3 fucking days.

Yea,
I know you've changed ALOT for me.
And i should be grateful,
But i didn't really ask for this.
I just want you to be yourself.

"Be yourself"
How familiar can this phrase get?

I'm always told to be myself.
But i can't.
Why?
Cause i've lost who i really am.

If the 4th mask is broken,
Just put on the 5th one.
If the 5th is broken,
Just put on the 6th one.
.
.
.
.
.
.
If the 86th mask is broken,
Just put on the 87th one.

It's not that i'm shunning,
It's just that i've too many to use.

They say i have a strong pride.
I would always put up a strong front even if i'm bleeding on the inside.

You can say i'm fake for all i care.
Or maybe even a two-headed snake.

Because i'm always self-contradicting myself.

You say i'm always keeping secrets from you,
Hiding stuffs.
But some things just cannot be said for some particular reason.

Even it's about friends,
There are just some things i can't say.
For example,
Do you expect me to tell everyone that my friend A had sex with 10 guys in one night?

The 91s & 92s just seem to clash don't they?
Their thinking are just simply too different.

24 september 2008 - getting nowhere

2008-09-24T23:59:00.003+08:00

[ Take two steps forward today,
But you will see yourself three steps behind tomorrow.
Happens everyday,
You gotta get used to it. ]

Blame is like a ticking time bomb,
That can blow up any second,
Killing anyone at anytime.

People passes it around,
Not allowing it to sit and rest.

But there's always one person,
Squating in a dark corner,
Perspiring cold sweat,
Praying so hard that he could actually miss his turn.

Of course that would never happen.
The bomb will eventually end up in his hands,
And then before you know it.

It explodes.
Ripping every single piece of flesh on your body,
Blasting your body into a million pieces,
Splashing blood all over the place,
Setting the place on fire,
Dragging many innocent victims down to hell.

This is getting nowhere.

20 september 2008 - THAI THAI THAI

2008-09-20T23:50:00.002+08:00

You know what really makes my blood boil?

S.I.A.H.T

Talking about them really makes me lose my cool.

Like what the hell is so good about them?
Why does everyone likes them so much?
Why does everyone have to keep talking about them?

Cause of them,
Some people look down on me.

19 sept 2008 - happy 6th

2008-09-19T23:47:00.001+08:00

Happy 6th!
;D

17 september 2008 - wei koon bday; dexter

2008-09-17T22:18:00.005+08:00

Firstly,
Happy Birthday to
WEI KOON!

Caught Steffen red-handed near Westmall today.
(:
Lol.

Went studying @ Mac.
Such a small world,
We bumped into Faris & friends there.

Weren't really studying all the way actually,
Fold roses, chat, study, chat, study and then chat again.
Lmao.

Who could study all the way in such a environment!
XD

Met up with Dexter since he was in the area.
Tried to sound him out,
But then..
His mouth was sealed damn tightly!
LOL.

Slacked @ CoffeeBean for awhile,
Bought Bubbletea for my sis.
Then walked home.

And when i was walking home,
There was this INCONSIDERATE ASSHOLE who was jogging,
Didn't even bother to say 'Excuse Me',
And bumped into me!
My Bubbletea nearly fly bohdoh!

Guess what?
I dropped the Bubbletea on the floor,
When i closing my main door.
-.-
Damn.

Well,
I guess it is fate that my sis should not drink Bubbletea.

14 september 2008 - The frozen

2008-09-14T18:28:00.002+08:00

The girls on the streets look all sad in this gold encrusted little town
Why is that? Isn't this the town of dreams?
Yeah, but it comes with a price

It's a town that never does anything and takes all the credit
A place that promises so much and never has a thing to say
Or a care in the world
There is no memory here
No dream for itself but the dreams of others

And all over the world you talk about a place you've only seen in the re-runs
Immortalized by its vice and deified for its carnage

There's money in the air there
All you have to do is reach up and grab it.

In basements, garages, parking lots, empty lots, school yards, town cars,
Back rooms and more
Diamonds are fashioned from expectations and fortified on a steady diet,
Of simple lives and red carpets

The ejaculating zeitgeist in night vision
Culture is a punch line in a motionless blood in the water
The sharks here play games you can't fathom
But you flock here anyway

On college money and credit cards
Spend a week bullshitting yourself that it was all true,

All of it
Just to watch in horror as it all falls into pieces into the gravity of reality
The starry eyes fade as it dawns on you,
Nothing is guaranteed

You are a part of the great divide, the chosen, or the frozen
Now your miles away without an egg,
Your college money is a collage of debt
And your credit cards are all snapped in fucking half.

Time to wander a landscape in berethed of mercy
This is now the back lot of your failed movie
A waking dream re-written without your permission
The real luster, the soft focus, the soap opera vision
Is just the hindsight of a world who's just been lied to
Of sad surfs, and untouchable lords

You took a chance didn't you?
The chance didn't have a par for you this time around
Maybe next life.

And you can't even walk home

The girls on the street all look sad in this cardboard cut-out little town
No wonder, that's the only thing here that's real
The gold is for fools and paradise is lost
But the hungry have never bothered with the cost

Day by day they fall away like rose petals
Like ink that won't dry or fade
It just runs wild down cracks and crevices, grooves and folds
So I hope someone saves you, before you get cold
I really do.

Because the girls are on set in this little black book
If you don't believe me take a closer look.
If you can?

- The Frozen by Corey Taylor

9 september 2008 - god's chance

2008-09-10T00:47:00.002+08:00

Totoro! :DDD

Went down to Westmall to meet Kenrick & Zhi Jie.
When i reached,
Turned out that they managed to contact Jason,
So didn't really needed my help yea?
(:

So i headed to Yew Tee~
Met up with Deroy,
Headed to Town to watch "Make It Happen".

We were 20 minutes late for the movie,
Cause his watch was an hour early,
And we didn't check our phones.
o.o

Anyway,
The movie was as bad as Wall.E.

The Totoro is cute ain't it?

Lol.

He was force to hang it on his bermudas.

Fate gave me two choices,
I took the second choice out of greed,
But it did not turn out the way i thought it would.
Fate gave me a second chance,
Because it knows the guilt i felt.

8 september 2008 - day out with bro

2008-09-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

"Call me a stranger,
You said i was a danger.."

Didn't sleep well for the whole night.
@.@
Had weird dreams too.

Anyway,
Took a bus from Westmall to Queensway.
Kept thinking that we missed the stop,
Partly because the ride was damn freaking long.
Zzz.

Hmmm..
$90,
Can consider.
(:
Haha.

Bought that something-something (LMAO),
And left for Taka.

Went to Kalms,
Bought something-something(2).

Then headed to Lot1,
Met up with Zhi Jie.

His hair was so messy.
o.o
LOL!

Walk one round around Lot1,
Then went to Westmall again.

Ate dinner,
Then Yi Qing came.

Took bus to Batok,
And what a coincidence!
We took the same bus with Jovell.

Such a small world.
Oh!
No,
Singapore is just a dot.
Zzz.

Went to a void deck and slacked,
Yi Qing taught us how to fold roses.

Lmao.
Zhi jie gave up half way.
Lousy..
=X

The rest of us were persevere,
(:

All the roses turned out alright,
I guess.
Lol.

Our hands were all stiff.
o.o

Went to 323 to have a drink,
Took a bus home after that.

Did abit of my Bio just now.
Starting to get tired already.

7 september 2008 - fake ed hardy

2008-09-07T20:14:00.007+08:00

I pray i could swim just so i would drown.

I have never been so serious in my life.

And i mean NEVER.

Just give me one more month.

I have a wish,

Y'know what is it?

Is that both of you could get along with each other.

How can you still trust me,

If there were 5840 of me?

30 august 2008 - stop crying your heart out

2008-08-30T14:33:00.002+08:00

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

- Stop Crying Your Heart Out

29 august 2008 - tcher day celeb; your call by amos

2008-08-29T23:38:00.004+08:00

Don't ask me why,
But it's definitely ain't tears of joy.

I nearly broke down in front of them.

Damn.

Pat my head & say "Don't cry."
Stare straight into my eyes & say "Don't be sad."

But it's just not you.

26 AUGUST 2008 - KEEPING ME moutH SHUT

2008-08-26T20:04:00.004+08:00

Firstly,
Sorry that i took SO LONG to actually find out what was going on.

Now that i finally know,
(Or at least i think i do),
I can only regret, regret & regret.

At least the questions in my heart are finally answered.

Secondly,
I really should learn to keep my mouth shut.

I mean seriously!
The best way not to trouble or affect anyone in anyway,
Is to keep EVERYTHING to yourself.

Damn.

I'm sorry that i caused so much trouble again.
Maybe you don't mind at all,
But i do.

Thirdly,
I seriously got a very bad habit.
And that is i'm always saying the wrong things cause i'm too straightforward at times,
Worst thing is,
I take days to find out what went wrong.
Which is why i tend to be offensive at times.

23,24 august 2008 - fireworks, cyborg she

2008-08-24T23:51:00.002+08:00

Raining the whole day!
My goodness.
It's time to birng out all of your scarfs, shawls, beanie, etc!
(:

Visited grandma,
She's still the same,
Except for the HUGE bruises on her hands.
o.o

Went to JEC to have lunch,
Bumped into them,
And saw her.
Damn it!
That slut.
No, its not Coleen.
No, its not Reyna.
Its her.

Met up with my baby,
Went to Cineleisure catch Cyborg She.
Great show!
(:
The girl is damn cute!
The guy was..
Well, he looked like J.N,
Except i find the actor alot better,
Cause i hate J.N.
(:

Freaking cold right now,
It's so nice to be on dry land.
Lol?

23 August 2008 Saturday

Fireworks Festival!
They were damn nice.
Took videos.
:D

And the place was damn crowded too.
Zzz.

Yes,
The fireworks were nice.
The only fire that was not so nice,
Was the fire in me.

Bear with me, will you?

21 august 2008 - STEFFEN'S BIRTHDAY!

2008-08-21T22:05:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to

STEFFEN!

:D

We sort of vandalised his table with our birthday wishes.
Haha.

20 august 2008 - the sian-ness, sis

2008-08-20T22:58:00.002+08:00

Ohmygod!
I'm about to die of the boredom!!!

My sis is having some issues with her guy.
Yes, his friends just can't keep their mouth shut.
They just can't stop the insults & comments.

And the worst thing is her guy has too much pride to even stand up to them.
Come on man,
He's an adult already,
29!
Hello~

Yepps,
It sure did hurt her alot this time.

She asked me,
'If his friends hate you, what will you do?'

I said,
There's nothing i can do,
Those are his friends too,
Anyway, i don't have to see them 24/7,
So i'll try to tolerate?

Then she asked,
'Does anyone one of them hate you?'

I answered,
I don't know.
After that incident,
I think i left a bad impression?
I won't blame them if they hate me anyway.

But of course Shawn kinda offended me last time,
Nevermind forget it,
Shouldn't continue in case some people get the wrong idea.

Oh yea,
Remember the bitch that i mentioned a week or two ago?
I simply can't stand her.
She's such a copycat.
Jovene is one of her 'role model'?
Erm..
It's not about Jovene. (like duh~)
I just can't stand that bitch copying people all the time.

19 august 2008 - happy 5th!

2008-08-19T22:29:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 5TH!

[:

My prelim results sucked to the core alright?
Hopeless~

Guess what?
My sis said she would buy me my Simpsons PSP,

IF i passed my Ns & hopefully make it to Os.

O.O!!!!

Cabbed to jurong,
Took train to Somerset.

We watch The Murder Of The Inugami Clan.
(Yea, i think that's the title?)
It was alright,
Despite the fact that we sat FIRST ROW SEATS!
The movie lasted for like 2 hours?

Went to PS to have our dinner,
PastaMania.
(:

Walked around after that,
I kept talking to myself?
LOL!
Yea, i'm nuts.
So deal with it.

:D

18 august 2008 - swollen eye; tonight

2008-08-18T19:55:00.002+08:00

Absent from school today,
My right eye was swollen,
But it's alright already,
So i'd be back in school by tomorrow i guess.

Somebody, anybody,
Please restrict me from viewing her blog!

God damn it,
I saw something i should NEVER have seen,
And by never,
I mean NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS SHOULD I EVER SEE THAT!

Reading my brother's blog is something that i do everyday single day,
Every one of his posts is so damn sweet.

Both of them are sweet alright?
* Envy *

Makes me recall everything that happened on the 11 march 2008.
[:
Or should i say the whole of march holidays?
Hehes.

16 august 2008 - friendship

2008-08-16T23:12:00.002+08:00

You can say i'm heartless or whatever,
But things change & people move on.

She's also happy where she's at.
And i'm happy at where i am at.
So, what's the problem?

Yea,
We're not that close anymore,
But it's not like i'm treating this friendship like it has never happened before,
We can still keep in contact.

People come and go.

15 august 2008 - what my name means?

2008-08-16T00:30:00.004+08:00

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are aloof, mysterious, and distant.

People feel like they really don't know the true you...

Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force.

Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself.

It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose.

You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

What Eugenie Koh Lok Ye Means

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.

You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.

People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

13 august 2008 - derine murni alvin li

2008-08-13T20:15:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to

DERINE

MURNI

ALVIN LI!

13 august 2008 - 阿宅失眠日记

2008-08-13T20:10:00.011+08:00

我的床抱怨著它的孤單

天快亮卻還是空空蕩蕩

它陪我熬夜它替我緊張

安靜的看你還在線上

我好像被畫了個煙燻妝 ( 煙燻妝 -* )

有黑輪懸掛在我的眼眶

一點都不累一點都不煩

卻從來不敢按下鍵盤

你不會知道你的失眠有我陪伴

從不同方向盯著同一個月亮

突然窗外飄進來烤麵包的香

哪一天能和你手牽手吃早餐

你很難想像你的夜裡從不孤單

有一個阿宅夜夜陪你等太陽

早就為你打聽好哪一扇櫥窗

一整晚都亮著等我帶你去欣賞

書桌上擺放著我的收藏 ( 收藏 -* )

那公仔表情開始不耐煩

它嫌我內向嫌我不勇敢

它怪我只敢要它陪伴

我在想害你失眠的答案 ( 找答案-* )

是害怕還是因為誰受傷

真心的力量並沒有滅亡

我也想為愛大聲囂張

你不會知道你的失眠有我陪伴

從不同方向盯著同一個月亮

突然窗外飄進來烤麵包的香

哪一天能和你手牽手吃早餐

你很難想像你的夜裡從不孤單

有一個阿宅夜夜陪你等太陽

早就為你打聽好哪一扇櫥窗

一整晚都亮著等我帶你去欣賞

怎麼我被困在三面牆

和一扇打不開的窗

我超想在你面前勇敢的吶喊

你不會知道你的失眠有我陪伴

從不同方向盯著同一個月亮

突然窗外飄進來烤麵包的香

哪一天能和你手牽手吃早餐

你很難想像你的夜裡從不孤單

有一個阿宅夜夜陪你等太陽

早就為你打聽好哪一扇櫥窗

一整晚都亮著等我帶你去欣賞

- 阿宅失眠日记

12 august 2008 - missing my colleages

2008-08-12T20:00:00.002+08:00

Okay,
I'm seriously missing my ex-colleages right now.
And i mean ALL of them,
Somehow it includes Benn too.
Yea,
I know it sounds so wrong.

Robyn, Big Bro~
Derek, My image consultant!
Qing yi, Bestie!
Theresa, Girlfriend~~
Nicole, Complaint department. LOL!
Jeremy, Listening ear.
Javier, Takes time to open up, just like me!
Mark, Love guru. AHAHAS!
Ivy, Complaint department's manager.
Isaiah, The person who gives me lots of heads to wash.
Ritz, My look alike (:
Kate, My guardian!
Xuan hui, The girl with the Spastic face. * She's so gonna kill me! *
Elaine, She may look innocent, but...
Zenchi, The kind-hearted one.
Kik, Who always tell me not to starve myself. Haha.
Serene, Flower vase!
Cassendra, Bestie~
Alvin, Who always gives me lotsa chances.
Dane, Mr friendly!
Tetty, My sunday partner!
Ifa, Smoker. Haha.
Don, Our second boss.
Benn, First boss.
Alyce, Hippopotamus!
Jasmine, Ostrich!

A total of 25 peeps!

And i still remembered Xiwen said 'Act one always hang out with matured people'.
Yea, yea, yea.
Look who's talking?

11 august 200 - stitch

2008-08-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

Thanks baby! (:

10 august 2008 - derine murni's bbq

2008-08-10T23:35:00.002+08:00

Derine's & Murni's BBQ!

Met up with Derine, Steffen, Chuan sin, Damien, Sherry, Wen jie, Sharon CJN & Abby,
At Bukit Batok's control station.
Took a bus to Derine's place.

They kept making fun of Damien and his 'Family'.
Lol.

Played Blackjack the moment we reached.
Kinda bored actually,
At least until the food was ready.

Murni & Fareez came.
Dexter came.
Derine's friends came.
Karen came.
And more of Derine's friends came.
Then Sherry left.

No offence but,
I seriously dislike Derine's colleages.
Spoil my mood.
But it doesn't matter.
I don't have to see them anymore.

Went into the house and gossiped with Sharon, Abby & Karen for awhile.
Ehem.
No comments about her alright?
I can't say anything about her either.

Chatted with Dexter,
Interview session.
Lol!

And the guys were like so mean!
They kept calling Derine's Pug , Chuan sin.

And he kept being suan-ed by us non stop!

Karen , Sharon & Abby left first.
Then Steffen, Chuan sin, Damien.
Murni & Fareez.
Then me, Deroy & Dexter.

The three of us cabbed to my neighbourhood,
Dexter took a bus home from there i think.

My stomach is empty & there nothing to eat at home.
Except instant noodles.
I'm lazy to cook them.
So i'm just gonna wait til tomorrow.

9 august 2008 - newness

2008-08-10T02:43:00.002+08:00

The Bottom Line
Today, you should focus on meeting people and on building some new relationships.

In Detail
Today, you should focus on meeting people and on building new relationships -- your current ones are all doing well enough to be left alone for a while. You have the right amount of curiosity for what makes other people tick right now, and you know just the right questions to ask. Plus, your easygoing manner will help them loosen up and really be themselves. So if you're torn between hanging out with an old friend or going to a gathering where you can meet someone new, opt for the newness.

9 august 2008 - a little more than a little bit

2008-08-09T23:26:00.002+08:00

Town today,
Went to get some stuffs.

Then headed to Marina Square,
Walk walk.

Went to Esplanade to meet up with the guys,
Walked to many places and still couldn't find the guys.
We finally met up with Kenrick, Zhi jie, Fayme & Jason at the Esplanade entrance.

Slacked there awhile,
Izzul, Haris, Irfan, Illya joined us.

And then we watched the fireworks together.
(:

I love Izzul's sling bag,
So square-ish & so cute!
LOL!

Kenrick left,
Then we left.

City hall was closed,
Had to walk ALL THE WAY to Raffles.

And the crowd was damn horrible.
I feel so disgusted sticking skin to skin with B*******S.

Headed to Westmall,
Wanted to get some photos printed but we were too late,
The shop already closed.
But it was alright.

Had dinner then went home.
Dead tired.
@.@

& for don't know what reason,
I got myself a brother.
Lmao.

Just a lil more than a lil bit.

8 august 2008 -- birthday hakim!

2008-08-08T22:51:00.002+08:00

National day celebration.
Reached school early cause we had to change into our Class tee.

It sucked.
The tee is the worst class tee ever made in Singapore History!
And damn expensive too!

Yea,
Classmates were all like complaining that we could had gotten a better quality,
better designed shirt & at a cheaper price.

Blame who?
Blame the Swimmer's goggles!

Anyway,
Was in town today,
Bumped into Jorbel & friends outside Cineleisure.

Watched LOVE GURU.
It was freaking hilarious!
Definitely recommended!

Went to Marina Square after that.
There was this arcade shop that allows you to pick up the stuffed toys.

There was one machine that had Gloomy Bear: Valentine's Day edition & a Big Rilakkuma Cushion!
Baby tried to get it for me,
But..

LOL!
Nevermind,
Its alright.
(:

7 august 2008 - bitch=hazel

2008-08-07T19:42:00.002+08:00

Haha.
Gossiping with Wei lun right now.

About who?
The one and only bitch from the next class.

Ooopps!
Did i say something?

Whatever.

She's bitch,
Everyone knows that.

Okay fine,
Maybe except her friends?

But she's a spoilt brat that's for sure.

6 august 208 - my birthday

2008-08-06T14:58:00.002+08:00

Special thanks to Deroy, Karen & Derine!

Love you guys.

2 august 2008 -- zhi jie ? kenrick ? deroy ?

2008-08-02T22:35:00.003+08:00

Suddenly remembered what she asked me yesterday.
If it's real,
It would be a hard decision to make,
Even though it is a dream come true.

I'd be happy & yet i'll be hating myself.

And i ask myself this,
Is it true?

I don't wish for it to be true,
But what if it is?

At the thought of being torned into two,
Makes me feel helpless.

Why can't the two most important people in my life,
Get along well?

Yes,
I'm starting to think again.

1 august 2008 -- rings deposit

2008-08-01T22:58:00.002+08:00

Kinda like my school life right now ,
Closer with my classmates (:

Even though something very disappointing happened yesterday ,
But it's alright ,
I guess .

Yea ,
I know it's a little too overboard with the friendship thing ,
But hey ,
What do you want me to do about it?
Break it off?

Maybe that will make you guys feel better ,
But it definitely won't be that way for me.

Deposited(:

28 july 2008 - what do you want ?

2008-07-28T19:13:00.004+08:00

Damn suprising how fast a person's mood can change cause of a song too.

Down.

I'm yours but where's mine ?
I need mine by my side .

28 july 2008 - truly madly deeply

2008-07-28T18:03:00.003+08:00

It's suprising how one song can change a person's enitre mood .

When you come to this world ,
Everyone is smiling while you're crying .
Live your life ,
So when you die ,
You'll be smiling while everyone's crying .

:]Truly madly deeply.

Burn this forest ,
Destroy everything .
Not letting it be revived by any means .

Nuture this rose ,
Water it with love ,
Make it live by any means .

Give her the rose ,
She wants the forest .

Give her the forest ,
& she'll want the rose .

Would you burn everything ?
Or continue to give her what she wants ,
& hopefully she'll be grateful .

- EUGENIE

28 july 2008 - i'm just a kid what more do you want ?

2008-07-28T16:45:00.004+08:00

I'm just a kid ,
What more do you want ?

Frustrated .
Somehow i always feel like crying whenever i'm frustrated .

26 july 2008 - 態度 cap !!!

2008-07-26T13:08:00.002+08:00

I want 態度 Caps !

25 july 2008 - sigh ~~~

2008-07-25T18:57:00.004+08:00

Sigh .

& fuck my mom .

----------------------------------------------------

Name 20 people you can think of right now.
Don't read the questions until you've named the 20 people.

1 - Deroy
2 - Karen
3 - Derine
4 - Kenrick
5 - Petrina
6 - Steffen
7 - Dexter
8 - Zhi jie
9 - Sherry
10 - Sean
11 - Xuan Ge
12 - Joshua
13 - Haris
14 - Ghazi
15 - Fareez
16 - Murni
17 - Jovell
18 - Harmuni
19 - Dinah
20 - Irza

1. How did you meet 14? @ GHAZI !
He's my next door classmate . (:

2. What would you do if you never ever met 4? @ KENRICK !
I would have missed out on a few things in my life .

3. What if 3 and 16 dated? @ DERINE & MURNI !
I think they'll be great as lesbians . (:

4. How about 19 and 15? @ DINAH & FAREEZ !
NO NO NO ! Cannot !! LOL !

5. Describe 20. @ IRZA !
Sweet guy who treats his friends & girlfriends very well . (:

6. Is 18 attractive? @ HARMUNI !
She's alright . (:

7. Describe 10. @ SEAN !
The " CUTEST " guy in Amber , No one else man , SERIOUSLY !

8. Do you know any of 4's family members? @ KENRICK !
Erm , Not really . Haha .

9. What would you do if 17 confessed that he/she liked you? @ JOVELL !
I'll reject on the spot ! LOL .

10. What language does 5 speak?? @ PETRINA !
English , Chinese , Mixed with a lil hokkien . :D

11. Who is 8 going out with? @ ZHI JIE !
Idk ?

12. How old is 1? @ DEROY !
16 going on 17 . (:

13. When is the last time you spoke to 14? @ GHAZI !
Just this afternoon . (:

14. What is 16's favourite band/singer? @ MURNI !
Alamak, I don't know ne .

15. Would you ever date 12? @ JOSHUA !
He's a not a bad guy actually . LMAO !

16. Would you ever date 11? @ XUAN GE !
Ain't a bad guy either . (:

17. Is 17 single? @ JOVELL !
I THINK SO ? HAHA .

18. What is 3's last name? @ DERINE !
Tan .

19. Would you date 15? @ FAREEZ !
Provided if no one would kill me . LOL ! Just kidding ~ I can hear someone sharpening the knife .

20. What is 20's school? @ IRZA !
Dunearn sec , 4PEARL ! :DDD

21. Where does 2 live? @ KAREN !
Bukit Gombak blk*** #08-*** . OPPS !

22. What is 6's favourite thing? @ STEFFEN !
Erm , Fish ? LOL !

23. Have you seen 13 naked? @ HARIS !
Half-naked , yes . LOL !

24. How would you feel if 7 and 13 dated each other? @ DEXTER & HARIS !
OMG ! NO NO NO NOOOOOOOOOO ~~~

25. Will you ever want to kiss 18 on the lips? @ HARMUNI !
LOL !

26. Do you love anyone from the above 20?
Of course ! I LOVE ALL OF THEM ! Haha .

24 july 2008 - oral

2008-07-24T20:03:00.003+08:00

Played Softball during PE .
Jaguars & Panthers VS The rest of the colors .

I was in the colorful team ,
And guess what ?
We lost .

Maybe we wouldn't have lost if i caught the ball when Zhi Jie threw it at me .
Yea ,
My eyes weren't on the ball .

MT oral today .
It was alright .

Wasn't really in a good mood though ,
Even when Steff talked to me i was like ...
Yea .

And then Miss Goggles had to irritate me further .
Bitch .
Okay fine ,
She just happened to say the wrong thing at the wrong time .

And my left eye was feeling damn uncomfortable !
Painful .
But it's alright now .

Something funny happened at home .
You know the Lion dance head ?
I have a minature one at home ,
Stuck on top of the TV using Blutacks .

One of the cats was playing with it ,
And it dropped on the floor ,
I went to pick it up ,
When i stood up ,
I saw the Lower jaw of the lion still on top of the TV ,
Which also means the lion in my hands only have the upper jaw .

The moment i saw the lower jaw lying there ,
I bursted out laughing !
Don't know why ,
But i just find it fucking hilarious !
LOL !

23 july 2008 - ken sent me home

2008-07-23T19:59:00.006+08:00

Happy 16th birthday to my very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very ,
Distant cousin ,
Mr Koh Xuan Ge !
Lol .

Went to gombak to look for Karen & Derine ,
They were having their dinner there .

Went to the night market near our school to get some food ,
The shop selling Waffle Hotdoogs wasn't open lors !
What the bloody hell .

But then found out later ,
That the other side of the night market was selling them .
@#^**%#& !!!

Home after that .

Made a bet with BAN THYE !
$100 hors !
Remember uh !!!
LOL .

22 july 2008 - if i told you..

2008-07-22T16:03:00.003+08:00

If i told you what was my favourite color ,
Would you listen ?
If i broke down & cried my heart out ,
Would you listen ?
If i laughed like a mad person ,
Would you listen ?
If i yelled & cursed a stranger ,
Would you listen ?

And so i ask myself too .

If you told me that you'd always wear your left shoe before the right one ,
Would i listen ?
If you cried because of her ,
Would i listen ?
If you laughed your head off in front of a crowd ,
Would i listen ?
If you threw anything you could get hold of at the wall ,
Would i listen ?

My answer : I would if i could .

If the way Derine felt is the same way you felt ,
I'm sorry .

21 july 2008 - RHD

2008-07-21T16:13:00.005+08:00

20 july 2008 - kenrick ! dexter bday

2008-07-20T00:39:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to ..
KENRICK & DEXTER!
:DDD

Met up with Kenrick , Zhi Jie , Oswa , Guan Kiat , Xiang Ji , Wei Lun , Charles , Jordan , Jovell , Olivia , Yu Qian , Pei Wen & Si Min .

Took a train to town ,
Watched The Dark Knight .

Oswa kept kicking my chair !
=X
LOL !

Loitered outside Cineleisure ,
Smoking .
Then a few officers came along ,
And poked their noses in .
Those officers are like so fake can !
Like damn obvious that they are playing with us .

Anyway ,
We went back to Cineleisure ,
Saw this Lady ( or at least we thought she was ) ,
Going around posing like a model .
Jordan walked past her ,
And she was like ,
" Hi , Handsome Boy ! "
LMAO !!!!!!

All of us were like so disgusted !
Kenrick didn't go ask for her number ~~~~~
Haha !

We kept whistling and shouting at her while she was going up the escalator ,
She turned around and did AV poses !!
OH MY GGGGOOOOOODDDDDDD !

EWWWWWWWWW~

P.S.
Did i enjoy myself today ?
Sigh ~

19 july 2008 - 4th month !

2008-07-19T00:14:00.004+08:00

Happy 4th month !

Our 3rd has been
Long ,
Unhappy ,
Tiring ,
Frustrating ,
Confusing ,
Pressurizing ,
Painful ,
Annoying ,
Irritating ,
Filled with jealousy ,
Fucked upside down & inside up .

But at least it's over yea ?

18 july 2008 - lmao quiz

2008-07-18T19:04:00.002+08:00

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY", YOU SAY ?
- Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus .
* Lmao sia . *

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
- Shake Your Pom Pom by Missy Elliot .
* O.O ! *

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
- Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade .
* Ehhhs ... My goodness ! *

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
- Cat And Mouse by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus .
" Am i suppose to be happy ? With all i ever wanted , it comes with a price . "

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
- Touch My Body by Mariah Carey .
* LOL !!!!!!!! Sounds SO wrong . *

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
- Maybe By Secondhand Serenade .
* Hmmm .. :] *

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
- Empty by The Click Five
* You people ! How could you !! :@ *

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
- Can't help but wait by Trey Songz .
* More like can't help but wait for my allowance ! :D *

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
- Stay Close Don't Go by Secondhand Serenade .
* OH MY GOOOODDDDDD !!!!!!!!!!!!! *

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
- Misery Business by Paramore .
* I swear it's not true ! *

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- Hot In The City by Billy Idol .
* LMAO !!!!! :DDD *

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
- Twenty-Twenty Surgery by Taking Back Sunday .
* (: *

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- My Heroine by Silverstein .
* I love this song to the core ! *

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
- Half Alive by Secondhand Serenade .
* Hmm .. I must be driving them up the wall eh ? *

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
- Can't take my eyes off you by Muse .
" You're just too good be true , Can't keep my eyes off of you ~ "

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
- I've Got All This Ringing In My Ears But None On My Fingers by Fall Out Boy .
* Hell yeah baby !! Woohoo ! *

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
- Bye Bye by Mariah Carey .
" I never knew i could hurt like this .. "

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
- O by Omarion .
* Ehhs ... *

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
- Heavenly Days by Yui Aragaki .
* Sky Of Love . Sweet , funny , innocent memories ! I wish i could go back . *

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
- If Tomorrow Never Comes by Ronann Keating .
* If you were me , Maybe you'd know . *

15 july 2008 - quiz

2008-07-15T20:46:00.002+08:00

1. You & your ex:
♥ fgjhdh

2. I am listening to:
♥ Your Love Is A Lie by Simple Plan

3. Maybe I should:
♥ Stop being such an idiot & enjoy my sec school life .

4. I love:
♥ Myself !

5. I don't understand:
♥ What the hell is wrong with me ?

6. I have lost my respect to:
♥ Hmmm...

7. I last ate:
♥ Biscuits .

8. The meaning of my display name is:
♥ My very unique name which alot of people love to pronounce wrongly .

-IS YOUR/ARE YOU-
1. Is your hair wet?
♥ NO .

2. Is ur cellphone right by you?
♥ Right in front of me , on the table .

3. Do you miss someone?
♥ You ?

4. Are you wearing chapstick?
♥ Nope .

5. Are you tired?
♥ Just a lil . M.P.E !

6. Are you wearing pajamas?
♥ Hell no .

7. Are you happy?
♥ iuyghn

8. Are you upset?
♥ No .

-HAVE YOU-

1. Recently done anything you regret?
♥ YES !

2. Ever lied?
♥ Who hasn't ?

4. Have you ever kissed someone?
♥ rthytyjfhb

5. Ever tripped over your own feet?
♥ Ehhhs...

-RANDOM-
Q: Is there a person who is on your
mind right now?
A: YOU !

Q: Do you have any siblings?
A: 2 older sisters . * faints *

Q: Do you have your own pc?
A: I wished i did . * evil laughters *

Q: Do you smile often?
A: EVER SINCE THAT DAY , I WAS NEVER NORMAL . LMAO ! :DDD

Q: Do you untie your shoes every time
you take them off?
A: No . So troublesome lors .

Q: Do you like your handwriting?
A: Sometimes . But yea , i guess it's fine .

Q: Who's bed other than yours would
you rather sleep in?
A: jyglujhnu

Q: What color shirt are you wearing
right now?
A: PURPLE ! (:

Q: What were you doing at 7PM
yesterday?
A: Hmmm .. On the phone i think .

Q: What are you going to do
tomorrow?
A: No idea where i'm going after school .

Q: Can't wait for what?
A: THE WEEKENDS !!!!!

Q: What would you rather be called?
A: EMO SIAO / JURIAN . :D

Q: When did you cry last?
A: 28 June 2008 2:42AM

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Guess not ??

Q: Do you have any pets?
A: 3 cats ! Oh no , it's 4 , Plus Steff . LMAO !

-THIS MONTH HAVE YOU...-

1. Made new friends?
♥ Guess so . Caught with schoolmates too ! (:

2. Fallen out of love?
♥ outfkuyhg

---------------------------------------------------

1. What's your horoscope.?
♥ LEO !

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
♥ JAPAN FOR SURE ! :D

3. What's your favourite thing(s) to do?
♥ Plug my ears with an MP3 .

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
♥ In a way , Yes .

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
♥ To live happily .

6. Do you encourage girl to admit their love to guys?
♥ Erm , sure . Why not ?

7. What's love?
♥ A part of life .

8. What do you dream of doing in the future?
♥ No idea man .

9. List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you.
♥ I tagged myself !

10. What makes you happy?
♥ LMAO ! The feeling of being wanted .

11. What type of person do you hate the most?
♥ People who lie .

12. If You Do Not Have A Boyfriend/Girlfriend,Do You Feel Like Having One Now?
♥ I used to . (:

13. Who is the most important person in your life?
♥ Hmmm..

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
♥ TRUST !

15. Do you have a crush on someone now? Who is it?
♥ Yes ! I think i got a crush on me !

16. The love of your life now?
♥ [:

17. Are you courageous enough to tell a person that you like him/her?
♥ Nope , i guess not .

18. What you want right now?
♥ CASH !

15 june 2008 - fuck knn cb !

2008-07-15T17:04:00.002+08:00

Yea ,
I'm the one who have damn lots of secrets .

And didn't you say that you don't wanna meet people with secrets ?

Like i said ,
There are just some things that couples can't talk about .

You said friends & lover are the same ,
You're wrong .

Do you haven any idea what me & my girlfriends talk about ?
We talk about everything !
We gossip about those bitches ,
Talk about shopping .
We talk about guys forheavens sake !

Do you expect me to talk to you about guys ?
The moment i just mention his name ,
You'd give me that LJB .

I though you were already okay with him ,
That's why i told you about the outing .
I didn't know that you'd still mind .

I always keep everything to myself ,
But have you ever wondered why ?
Why do i tell them to my good friends and not you ?

Cause you give me the impression that you won't listen ,
And would only stick to the way you think .
You'll just keep quiet & stone .

Yea ,
I know what you wanna say ,
' What the fuck do you want me to say ? ' right ?

You're not called Tan Stubborn for nothing you know ?

Yea ,
I know .
How the fuck would i know if you'd listen or not ,
When i didn't even tell you shit .

14 july 2008 - fight fight fight

2008-07-14T19:22:00.003+08:00

It's like what the hell ,
I was kept in the dark ?
I even need Kenrick & Sean to tell me what the hell happened to my boyfriend ?
Pathetic fool .

Here ,
I'll let you guess the reason behind it .
It's me of course !

And there they go again ,
Putting the blame on me ,
Cause i'm the reason of what has become of their good friend .

Well ,
I'm sorry okay ?

What else do you want ?
My life ?
I'd be more than happy to give it to you !

& to my Beaker ,
Cheer up alright ?
No one expected this to happen ,
Yea sure ,
This ain't the first time this kind of thing happened .
But don't give up okay ?
So what if she asked you not to be such an idiot ?
Are you gonna just listen to her , and give up ?

I'm sure she didn't mean it too ,
Maybe she's too shy ?
Please luhs ,
Who wouldn't ?
I'm already getting goosebumps can .
Lol .

If you really like her , just pretend you didn't hear that phrase .
(:

12 july 2008 - blue green jacket ; fred perry !

2008-07-12T23:41:00.003+08:00

Well ,
Finally got my Blue jacket from Topman .
:DDDDD

Fred Perry man !
2 months ! 2 months !
Lol .

11 july - sick sick ; his home

2008-07-11T23:36:00.002+08:00

Has been damn damn long since i posted a normal post .
Zzz .

Anyway ,
Out with my baby today ,
Watched ' Hellboy 2 ' .
It's nice really !
Just that i was about to fall asleep cause i'm too tired .
The movie is great actually .

Baby was sick today ,
Fever ,
Half alive .
Went over to his place ,
So messy !
Lol .

Cabbed home after that .
Yawns ~
Shag-ness man .
Goodnight peeps !

10 july 2008 - sorry im bad

2008-07-10T18:59:00.003+08:00

Sorry that i failed .
Sorry that i don't treat you well .
Sorry that i put them in front of you .
Sorry that i always neglect you .
Sorry that i'm always not in a good mood .
Sorry that i hate her .
Sorry that i'm always on the phone with friends .
Sorry that i'm always saying the wrong stuffs .
Sorry that i always give you a fucked up attitude .
Sorry that i have a good friend who is a guy .
Sorry that i make you feel insecure .
Sorry that i make you feel unassured .
Sorry that i can't tell you everything .
Sorry that i'm a person with alot of secrets .
Sorry that i just simply care too much about what others say .
Sorry that we can only envy others .
Sorry that we can't be as happy as them .
Sorry that you don't feel that i love you .
Sorry that i brought you so much pain and sadness .
Sorry that you feel you're dating yourself .
Sorry that i kept silent the day we broke up .
Sorry that the problem lies with me .
Sorry that your friends are all against me .
Sorry that i'm just a bloody shrimp .

I'm sorry , i'm sorry , i'm sorry .
And i know these sorries will never be enough ,
Cause there's just too much .

9 july 2008 - dad jer bday ; fucker

2008-07-09T21:09:00.003+08:00

Hey fucker !
Read this ,

If you ain't happy about me ,
Just get lost & leave me alone !

And i seriously don't think that you could even understand a single word that i say ,
So why don't you make things easier for both parties & disappear ?

8 july 2008 - if i fall ; kenrick deroy ; oh happy dday

2008-07-08T19:50:00.001+08:00

This is for the ones who believe their lives won't change
Hoping that someday things will meant and be the same
And this is for the ones who have lost it all and all that's left to gain
Is a simple reminder that the things that were blind to slip away

How can I say
Say I'll be okay

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

Now that the lines been broken
I'm too afraid to just look back
The pages have left an empty space
You were all I had
Why does it have to be this way
These things they'll never change
Still I'm left with knowing, content and happy, this is all I need

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

- If I Fall

6 june 2008 - drowning in pain

2008-07-06T23:23:00.002+08:00

Oh so sweet !!!
They looked damn damn damn damn sweet together okay ?
Looked darn happpy too .
It was PURE happiness written all over her face !
So happy for them .
(:

Yea ,
I'm drowning my sorrows again .
Okay ,
Not exactly 'sorrows' ,
But yea .

6 july 2008 - sick ; drinking ; in pain

2008-07-06T00:27:00.003+08:00

Had been unwell since yesterday .
Throat infection .
And now it hurts .
So does my piercing .
Zzz .

Sis & Samuel bought red wine today .
:D

Yes ,
I'm drinking right now .
It has been so damn long can .

2 july 2008 - farid's birthday ! : oral

2008-07-02T20:33:00.004+08:00

Us ! Without Xuan Ge . Taken by Farid ! :DDD

Firstly ,
I just wanna say ,
Happy 16th birthday to Farid !!
:DDD

Had my N lvl oral today .
And instead of be all stressed up and all ,
My class was like actually chit chatting away before the oral ,
We took a group photo !
Just for the memories .
(:

Okay ,
I admit ,
I'm damn bored .

1. Grab the book nearest to you. Flip to page 18, find line 4.
Erm . " Appeal of entertainment spreading across the world " .

2. Stretch your left arm as far as you can. What can you touch?
My sister's box of nail polishes (:

3. Before you started this survey, what were you doing?
Removing my contacts ?

4. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Channel V's Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang :D

5. Without looking, guess what time it is.
Erm , 8:40pm ?

6. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
8:47pm . Missed it by that much !

7. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The tv , some old guy is singing .

8. When did you last step outside/ What were you doing?
Just awhile ago , Billy Bombers with my sis ! :D

9. Did you dream last night?
Idk , If i did , i don't remember .

10. Do you remember your dreams?
Well , sometimes .

11. When did you last laugh?
Just now on the bus , with my sis .

12. Do you remember why & what?
Hmmm .. Let me try to recall . Trying .. trying .. tried . Nope , i don't remember .

13. What is on the walls of the room you're in?
White paint , House lizard maybe ? Lmao .

14. Seen anything weird lately?
If you consider a guy with a small patch of long hair ( tied up ) weird ,
Then yea , i saw something weird .

15. What do you think of this quiz?
Idk , I'm just killing time .

16. What is the last film you saw?
21 ?

17. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
Japan , Anywhere in Japan ! :DD

18. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
ED HARDY caps , jacket , shoes , whatever that they have luhs . EMPORIO ARMANI'S watch ! PAUL FRANK'S *** ! :DDD

19. Tell me something about you that most people dont know.
I have shoulder blades that are like wings . LOL !

20. If you could change one thing in this world, what would it be?
Hmmmm ..

21. Do you like to dance?
fdhjfdgj

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?
If i must . But i wouldn't bear to leave my friends .

23. Does your name make any interesting anagrams?
Nope . It's so complicated can .

24. Who made the last incoming call on your phone?
Beaker's home .

25. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
BBT ?

26. Last time you swam in a pool?
Don't remember .

27. Type of music you like most?
Hmmm ..

28. What type of musoc you dislike most?
CHEAP TECHNO ! Oh my gawd ~~

29. Are you listening to music right now?
Nope .

30. What colour is your bedroom carpet?
Don't have one in my room .

31. If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would it be?
My own room , with a huge bathroom & a spacious wardrobe . (:

32. What was the last thing you bought?
WOW ! It has been like a damn long time !!

33. Have you ever ridden a motorbike?
Nope .

34. Would you go Bungee jumping or sky diving?
SKY DIVING ! That bitch seriously have NO IDEA how lucky she is !!

35. Do you have a garden?
Nope .

36. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
Erm , Ehhs .. Ahahs .

37. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
5 more minutes please !!

38. If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?
Idk ?

39. Who sent the last text message you received?
Deroy .

40. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Store ? I'll go to ten stores man !

41. What time is bed time?
Anytime is bed time (:

42. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
No , not good enough .

43. How many tattoos do you have?
None , at the moment . [:

44. If you dont have any, have you ever thought of getting one?
OF COURSE ! A star on my left wrist .

45. What did you do for your last birthday?
Out with friends .

46. Do you carry a donor card?
Nope .

47. Who was the last person you had dinner with?
My sis .

48. Is the glass half empty or half full?
Half empty !

49. What's the farthest away place you've been?
Don't ask .

50. When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
I dislike tomatoes !

51. Have you ever won a trophy?
Yepps , a damn damn damn damn damn long time ago .

52. Are you a good cook?
Cooking ? So not my style man .

53. Do you know how to pump your own gas?
Nope .

54. If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be?
Idk man .

55. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
Yes , And it looks horrible on SOME people . (:

56. Do you touch type?
Sometimes .

57. What's under your bed?
My xbox , Boxes with who-knows-what inside .

58. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Idk ? Maybe ?

59. Think fast, what do you like right now?
Ed Hardy cap :DD Just you wait man , I'll get it & wear it infront of your face !

60. Where were you on Valentine's Day?
School ? Made a girl cry . Not lesbian luhs ! Don't anyhow think .

61. What time did you get up?
6am ? Stupid school ..

62. What was the name of your first pet?
Leo .

63. Who is the second last person to call you?
My dad .

64. Is there anything going on this weekend?
Studying on sunday ? Hopefully that is ..

65. How are you feeling right now?
PAIN ! Oh my aching muscles ~

66. What do you think about the most?
Idk ~

67. What time do you get up in the morning?
6am on school days . 11am on weekends ?

68. If you had a big win in the lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?
I wouldn't have to tell . They would notice the new stuffs on me . :DD

69. Who would you tell first?
tdjyugok

70. What is the last movie that you saw in the cinema?
21 .

71. Do you sing in the shower?
No .

72. Which store would you choose to max out your credit car?
Are you blind ?

73. What do you do most when you're bored?
Talk on the phone , It kills time , ALOT of time . (:

74. What do you do for a living?
No idea man , i wish i knew .

75. Do you love your job?
HELL NO !

76. What do you wanna be when you grow up?
Idk .

77. If you could have any job, what would you want to be?
Psycologist .

78. Which came first, the chicken or the egg?
What chicken ? What egg ? I came first luhs !

79. How many keys are there on your key ring?
1 ? Door . We don't lock the gate .

80. Where would you retire to?
Japan !

81. What kind of car do you drive?
Hehehes ~~~

82. What are your best physical features?
People say i look great , whether i'm a guy or a girl . Hey , stop laughing , i'm proud of that alright ? Why don't you try it !

83. What are your best characteristics?
Hmmm.....

84. If you could go anywhere in the world on a vacation, where would it be?
Japan , Paris .

85. What kind of books do you like to read?
I dont read much .

86. Where would you want to retire to?
Zzzzzzzzz !

87. What is your favourite time of the day?
Cold & silent night . When no one can hear your cries .

88. Where did you grow up?
Taman Jurong .

89. How far away from your birthplace do you live now?
It's pretty close , just that travelling there is troublesome .

90. What are you reading now?
This question ?

91. Are you a morning person or night owl?
They call me Crazy owl .

92. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
Yepps .

93. Can you close your eyes & raise your eyebrows?
Yepps , Can't everyone do that ?

94. Do you have pets?
3 cats !

95. How many rings before you answer the phone?
I pick it up the moment i get to it . Unless it's some irritating peeps . Lmao .

96. What is your best childhood memory?
I was born a 14 yeard old kid .

97. What are some of the jobs you have had in your life?
Salesgirl , Hair stylist assistant ..

98. Any new & exciting things you would like to share?
Nothing at all .

99. What is most important in life?
My happiness , *** , family & love .

100. What inspires you?
Hmmmm...

30 june 2008 - betrayed ?

2008-06-30T22:24:00.004+08:00

I still feel betrayed ?
Well ,
Not exactly .
Don't know how to describe it .

I'm sorry but i just can't bring myself to talk to you about my own stuffs anymore .

Yea ,
I know ,
It may not be your fault .

But still ,
Like i said ,
I hate people doing things behind my back .

Insecurity .

And oh my gawd !
I thought i lost my good friend last night .

Turns out i didn't !
Say YAY !
YAY ~

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1. What's more important? Money Or Love?.
Money ? Lmao .

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
YES ! When i'm feeling fucked up & don't want anybody to disturb me .

3. What happened at 10.00am today?
Ehhs , Geog lesson ?

4. When did you last cry?
Last week , Don't ask why .

5. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Bread luhs .

6. What do you want in your life right now?
Hmmm...

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
Depends on situation .

8. What is your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Me ? Lol .

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
Shorts .

10. What is the nicest text in your inbox say?
Hey ! i wana talk to u . can i call u ?

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
Idk .

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No .

13. What was the last movie you caught?
21 .

14. What are you proud of?
My industrial piercing :DDD

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Got a really long message for you .

16. If you have a chance to migrate where will you migrate to?
JAPAN !!!!!!!!!!!

17. Do you have any nicknames?
Emo Siao , Jurian , Hantu .

18. What does your last received text message say?
What's up with you and my inbox man ?

19. What time did you do to bed last night?
12 /

20. Are you currently happy?
Well , i can't be that greedy can i ?

21. Who gives you best advice?
Hmmm..

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Never done that .

23. Who did you talk to on phone last night?
My Dear Beaker ! (:

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Currently , No .

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
My Dear Beaker ?

26. Do you wear toe socks?
Worn it once , Felt damn weird can .

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Karen , 24 june .

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
ufkhjbb

29. What annoys you most in a person?
Alot of things annoy me .

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
No ?

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
Nope , at least not yet . Lmao .

32. What is the colour of your room?
White .

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
Depends who's that person . If it's him , i would be stabbing him right now instead of doing this quiz .

34. Do you believe in the saying “talk is cheap”?
Idk ne .

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Me . NO ONE touches my bed . (:

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Him .

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
Ehhs , the whole world ?

38. Do you have a life?
I wish i did .

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt?
For fuck ?

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
Erm , I kinda forgot .

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Me , Karen & Joe . LOL !

42. Last time you smiled?
Earlier on.

43. Have you changed this year?
Guess so .

44. What are you listening right now?
For What It's Worth .

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
No .

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open luhs ..

47. Is there a quote you live by?
No, usually I forget it after reading it.

48. Do you want someone you cant have?
Ehhs .

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Yepps .

50. What was the worst idea you have had in this week?
Shhhh ! It's a secret !

51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
On the phone . (:

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
yflkuhyb

53. What song best describe your love life?
So many songs to choose from !

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
What person ?

55. Who always make you laugh?
My Dear Beaker , Him , TEE KEE , HAPPY FRUIT .

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Yepps .

57. Favourite website?
FS , My blogs .

58. What your middle name?
LY ?

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
School .

60. What do you think you are like?
A Shrimp , a useless one .

61. Who will you choose to die with?
Lover on my right , Best friend on my left . :DD

62. Where have you been today?
My damn school ?

63. What game do you play often?
I don't play games .

64. Who are you missing right now?
My cat who passed away last year .

65. If you have to choose between friend n loves, who will you choose?
I will not answer this question , so as not to hurt both parties .

66. What are you doing right now?
Enjoying my blog song .

67. Which primary school are you from?
Yuhua .

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Yellow , Red & Black .

69. What emotion you like to show?
[: If you know what it means that is .

70. What is your life to you?
It used to be colorful .

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
29th floor baby !

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Wasn't online today .

73. Who you admire most?
gkfhbkrjg

74. Which month are you born in?
I'm an august baby !

75. How are you feeling right now?
Restless .

76. What is the time now?
11:21PM

77. Where are you now?
Singapore.

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
The last time i coloured my hair was Asian black .

79. What is the highest alcoholic percentage you have had consume?
Never notice the percentages .

80. What do you do when you are moody?
I do LOTS of things [:

81. At which age you wish to get marry?
jyhvflyhv

82. Who is more important to you?
Lalala ~

83. Do you think you have enough confident?
Obviously No .

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
Idk ?

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yepps .

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
Travel through time , TO MEND MY MISTAKES .

87. What is your goal for this year?
My bloody N lvl .

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
Idk .

89. What feeling do you love most?
Zzz .

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
Can't you feel the heat ?

91. What feeling you hate the most?
Zzz .

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
After that incident , I do now .

93. Do you believe in god?
lhfvlbljgh

94. Who cares for you most?
Parents ?

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
The way i think .

96. What will you bring when you fight?
My guts . LMAO !

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
The list can go on for like FOREVER !

98. What would you feel that everyone no longer cares for you?
I'm better off dead .

99. What if your stead two-timed you?
Hmmm , Maybe you should ask him instead ?

100.What will you do if you lie to your friend?
Like finally this is over !

Oh well ,
Good night peeps !

28 june 2008 - industrial done . next up , double tongue !

2008-06-28T23:27:00.002+08:00

Done by HP from BODYDECO !

27 june 2008 - anger

2008-06-27T20:15:00.002+08:00

Damn fucked up recently .
Damn damn .

Here are a few things .
1 . Fucking attitude !
2 . Trust !
3 . People who think they know things , but they actually DONT !
4 . Myself , for not knowing what the hell am i doing & not knowing what to do !
5 . Dragging my friends down the water with me . ( this seriously have nothing to do with them .

I want to *** ,
But i don't wanna *** ,
Cause i'm afraid that i'm just playing ,
I'm afraid that i won't learn this lesson ,
I'm afraid you'll get hurt again ,

Yea ,
I'm a fucking coward .

It's about time i settle things myself ,
I should stop involving my friends in this .
Sorry that ALL of you got involved with me .
I won't bother you guys with this anymore .
You guys have done enough for me .

24 june 2008 - useless shrimp

2008-06-24T21:42:00.002+08:00

I'm a useless shrimp !

23 june 2008 - giving up

2008-06-23T22:02:00.003+08:00

You know what ?
I seriously feel like giving up .

But if i do ,
I'll be letting myself down .
So i can't .

But i really don't know what to do either .

I only give answers ,
Not explainations .

But what you want is explanations .
And some cannot be told .

When i'd finally given an explanation ,
It wasn't understood .
Maybe i didn't explained it in the right way ?
Or maybe it's just my fucked up attitude .

I really don't know what to say ,
The whole world is against me .

Please don't moan or cry for me ,
If today was the last day you saw me .

22 june 2008 - pressure stress

2008-06-22T21:12:00.002+08:00

Stop giving me pressure !
I'm fucking stressed out enough .
I know you guys mean well ,
But did you guys ever thought of my feelings ?
All y'all do is ask me why .

And how the fuck would i know why things turned out like this ?!
Do you think that i'm enjoying it ?

Why don't you guys try it out for yourself !
Then i shall be the one giving you pressure .
Let's see how you'd fucking feel then !

Can't you guys consider my fucking feelings ,
Before stressing me out ?

Yea sure ,
It's the first time he's like this ,
But hey ,
It's the first fucking time I'M like this too alright ?

And you guys just can't stop putting the fucking blame on me ,
Can't you ?

22 june 2008 - leg wound

2008-06-22T13:58:00.002+08:00

My wound hurts like hell .

Why don't you just kill me ?
Take a knife ,
& stab right through my heart .

Oh wait ,
I forgot ,
I am already dead .

21 june 2008 - breakup 7:51pm

2008-06-21T20:28:00.003+08:00

The mixed feelings of a mute ,
Who is it that can understand ?
Can you hear it ?
Or even feel it .

But the true feelings of a person ,
Cannot be easily understood either .
The words are muffled ,
The touch is numb .

This burning flame ,
When would it go out ?

- eugenie

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I know i will regret .

Sorry for being a fucking mute

I know i've been a bitch .

I'm sorry .

Thanks for everything you've done .

The wound on my left leg ,
Is gonna get an infection soon .

21 june 2008 - round 2

2008-06-21T15:04:00.002+08:00

I can't promise anything .

Maybe i should what i was told ,
Everyone's stressed out .

I can only say sorry .

20 june 2008 - going throught a bad tiime

2008-06-20T02:53:00.002+08:00

Everyone is going through a bad time recently .
Be it relationships , friendships or family .

I can only say ,
DON'T BE SAD .
Cheer up ,
Look on the bright side ,
Too much negative thoughts will get you nowhere either .

You don't have to fake a smile if you don't want to ,
Just be yourself in times of sadness or happiness ,
Be true to yourself .
Follow your heart .

Just share your thoughts with someone you're comfortable with ,
Hang out with friends ,
Play a sport .

Heck ,
Steal your parent's credit card & go on a shopping spree !

Staying home will only make you feel worst ,
You'll have nothing to do ,
No one to talk to ,
And all the time in the world to think of TOO MANY THINGS !

So get out of the house !
Yea ,
I know you're moody and all ,
You don't feel like going out cause you don't have the mood ,
You're too tired to even move your damn feet ,
Or walk to the kitchen to get something to eat .

But once you get out there ,
Talk to some friends ,
Gradually you'll feel better !
Or at least you get fat cause you're stuck to the sofa at home eating chips & watching TV .

At times when you're down ,
You feel like killing yourself and all ,
Just cause you've done something wrong ,
Or done something not up to your expectations ,
Learn from it ?
Yea right .
How about moan over it ?
Sure ,
Go ahead !
Just don't moan over it for too long .

No matter how serious the problem is ,
Always think to yourself ,
' If this little setback is gonna affect me this much , how the hell am i gonna survive when i'm out in the society ? ' .

' This can't be the worst thing that has ever happened to me , there's bound to be more coming up for me in the future , i can't let this affect me so much ! ' .

Treat every little obstacle in life as a test ,
If you learn from it ,
You'll feel that your life is made alot easier .

Oh well ,
I'm kinda running out of things to say ,
So ..
I guess i'll stop here .

Can't believe i wrote this much !

My goodness ,

What's wrong with me ?

Haha .

Anyway ,

I just wanna wish all the best to all the people who are having problems with their lives .
Goodnight people !

19 june 2008 - 3rd month

2008-06-19T11:59:00.002+08:00

Happy 3rd month !
(: