I still feel betrayed ?
Well ,
Not exactly .
Don't know how to describe it .

I'm sorry but i just can't bring myself to talk to you about my own stuffs anymore .

Yea ,
I know ,
It may not be your fault .

But still ,
Like i said ,
I hate people doing things behind my back .


Insecurity .





And oh my gawd !
I thought i lost my good friend last night .

Turns out i didn't !
Say YAY !
YAY ~




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1. What's more important? Money Or Love?.
Money ? Lmao .

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
YES ! When i'm feeling fucked up & don't want anybody to disturb me .

3. What happened at 10.00am today?
Ehhs , Geog lesson ?

4. When did you last cry?
Last week , Don't ask why .

5. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Bread luhs .

6. What do you want in your life right now?
Hmmm...

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
Depends on situation .

8. What is your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Me ? Lol .

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
Shorts .

10. What is the nicest text in your inbox say?
Hey ! i wana talk to u . can i call u ?

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
Idk .

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No .

13. What was the last movie you caught?
21 .

14. What are you proud of?
My industrial piercing :DDD

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Got a really long message for you .

16. If you have a chance to migrate where will you migrate to?
JAPAN !!!!!!!!!!!

17. Do you have any nicknames?
Emo Siao , Jurian , Hantu .

18. What does your last received text message say?
What's up with you and my inbox man ?

19. What time did you do to bed last night?
12 /

20. Are you currently happy?
Well , i can't be that greedy can i ?

21. Who gives you best advice?
Hmmm..

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Never done that .

23. Who did you talk to on phone last night?
My Dear Beaker ! (:

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Currently , No .

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
My Dear Beaker ?

26. Do you wear toe socks?
Worn it once , Felt damn weird can .

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Karen , 24 june .

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
ufkhjbb

29. What annoys you most in a person?
Alot of things annoy me .

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
No ?

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
Nope , at least not yet . Lmao .

32. What is the colour of your room?
White .

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
Depends who's that person . If it's him , i would be stabbing him right now instead of doing this quiz .

34. Do you believe in the saying “talk is cheap”?
Idk ne .

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Me . NO ONE touches my bed . (:

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Him .

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
Ehhs , the whole world ?

38. Do you have a life?
I wish i did .

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt?
For fuck ?

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
Erm , I kinda forgot .

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Me , Karen & Joe . LOL !

42. Last time you smiled?
Earlier on.

43. Have you changed this year?
Guess so .

44. What are you listening right now?
For What It's Worth .

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
No .

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open luhs ..

47. Is there a quote you live by?
No, usually I forget it after reading it.

48. Do you want someone you cant have?
Ehhs .

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Yepps .

50. What was the worst idea you have had in this week?
Shhhh ! It's a secret !

51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
On the phone . (:

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
yflkuhyb

53. What song best describe your love life?
So many songs to choose from !

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
What person ?

55. Who always make you laugh?
My Dear Beaker , Him , TEE KEE , HAPPY FRUIT .

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Yepps .

57. Favourite website?
FS , My blogs .

58. What your middle name?
LY ?

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
School .

60. What do you think you are like?
A Shrimp , a useless one .

61. Who will you choose to die with?
Lover on my right , Best friend on my left . :DD

62. Where have you been today?
My damn school ?

63. What game do you play often?
I don't play games .

64. Who are you missing right now?
My cat who passed away last year .

65. If you have to choose between friend n loves, who will you choose?
I will not answer this question , so as not to hurt both parties .

66. What are you doing right now?
Enjoying my blog song .

67. Which primary school are you from?
Yuhua .

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Yellow , Red & Black .

69. What emotion you like to show?
[: If you know what it means that is .

70. What is your life to you?
It used to be colorful .

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
29th floor baby !

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Wasn't online today .

73. Who you admire most?
gkfhbkrjg

74. Which month are you born in?
I'm an august baby !

75. How are you feeling right now?
Restless .

76. What is the time now?
11:21PM

77. Where are you now?
Singapore.

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
The last time i coloured my hair was Asian black .

79. What is the highest alcoholic percentage you have had consume?
Never notice the percentages .

80. What do you do when you are moody?
I do LOTS of things [:

81. At which age you wish to get marry?
jyhvflyhv

82. Who is more important to you?
Lalala ~

83. Do you think you have enough confident?
Obviously No .

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
Idk ?

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yepps .

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
Travel through time , TO MEND MY MISTAKES .

87. What is your goal for this year?
My bloody N lvl .

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
Idk .

89. What feeling do you love most?
Zzz .

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
Can't you feel the heat ?

91. What feeling you hate the most?
Zzz .

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
After that incident , I do now .

93. Do you believe in god?
lhfvlbljgh

94. Who cares for you most?
Parents ?

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
The way i think .

96. What will you bring when you fight?
My guts . LMAO !

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
The list can go on for like FOREVER !

98. What would you feel that everyone no longer cares for you?
I'm better off dead .

99. What if your stead two-timed you?
Hmmm , Maybe you should ask him instead ?

100.What will you do if you lie to your friend?
Like finally this is over !



Oh well ,
Good night peeps !

Damn fucked up recently .
Damn damn .

Here are a few things .
1 . Fucking attitude !
2 . Trust !
3 . People who think they know things , but they actually DONT !
4 . Myself , for not knowing what the hell am i doing & not knowing what to do !
5 . Dragging my friends down the water with me . ( this seriously have nothing to do with them .





I want to *** ,
But i don't wanna *** ,
Cause i'm afraid that i'm just playing ,
I'm afraid that i won't learn this lesson ,
I'm afraid you'll get hurt again ,

Yea ,
I'm a fucking coward .



It's about time i settle things myself ,
I should stop involving my friends in this .
Sorry that ALL of you got involved with me .
I won't bother you guys with this anymore .
You guys have done enough for me .

Thanks for everything you've done .

Happy 3rd month !
(:

We were with Jarek & Shanny today ,
Went to catch a movie at Vivo .
ShaoLin Girl .
Lol ?

Shanny left for tuition after the movie .
Then the 3 of us went to Sentosa to meet up with their family .

Took the Skyride up ,
Went to the Sky tower ,
Then LUGE-ed down again .


Walked to KouFu for their dinner .
Then we walked around while waiting for ' Songs Of The Sea ' to start .

Yea ,
Then blah blah blah ,
Took a bus home from vivo .








I also don't know what to say ,
Maybe i picked a wrong day to go out today ,
& now it all rhymes ,
Sometimes i think that i'm blind .

Went to the hospital to visit my grandma ,
Again ,
As usual ?

Anyway ,
Me & my big sis were like playing all the way can .
Filming ourselves doing funny things .
LOL !
We were just acting actually .
(:


Went to meet him after that ,
Watched ' Missing ' ,
It was alright ?
The group of girls infront of us just couldn't stop screaming their heads off .

Was in Town ,
Shopped for awhile .
Bumped into Sin ming , Zeid & friend too .

Took a train to Tampines to meet Jovell & Simin .
They didn't wanted to hang around at the chalet so early .

So we walked around Tampines Mall .
Something eerie happened ?
Nevermind .



Went back to Pasir Ris .
To Kenrick's chalet .
All guys .
Okay fine ,
Kenrick's mum was there too .
Lol !


He was trying to show off his tattoos .
Haha .
:DD


Went to Cheers to get some drinks ,
Came back .
Then Amos & Vannessa came too .

Me , Karen & jovell went inside ,
Wei lun was inside .
Then Dexter came in too .

Karen & Jovell wanted go get something ,
But then found out that Karen's shoe broke .
First suspect ?
DEXTER !
Lol .
He must have stepped on it somehow .

Anyway she wore my sandals ,
Both of them went out to buy another slipper .

Stayed inside with the 2 & watched TV .


After they came back ,
Ken's mum kept asking Jovell to eat ,
Yea , Of course she did .
She fed me too !
Thanks ~
Wahaha .
:DDD


The room got crowded when the time passed .
So we went outside .

Slack , slack & slack .
Didn't eat much too .


Finally at around 10 ,
Me , Karen , Jovell , Steffen , Ye shun & Ken's mum ,
Wanted to go back already .

Walked to the bustop just to find out that we missed the last bus .
It started raining heavily ,
We had to walk to another bustop .

When we reached Pasir ris interchange ,
Some staffs from a stall kept scolding us ,
Saying " Why didn't you guys bring an umbrella ? You stupid fools ! "

Like it's your business ?
Bloody fuckers ..

Create your own Friend Test here

Current mood : OH MY GGGOOOODDD !!!!!!!!




Oh my god , oh my god , oh my god !!!!!
Yea ,
i know i keep repeating that .
But really ,
OH MY GOD ~~~~~~~~~



It takes alot alot of courage to change yourself ,
For the person you love .
It's a good thing ,
But also ,
Why change youself to the kind of person that he/she likes or prefer ?
They say that if you really like the person ,
You would accept who they really are ,
And not some faker who try to be someone their not .

Sometimes it's just not meant to be ?


But i really admire those who DID change though ,
Cause it's hard ,
Really very hard to change .

You know what ?
Sometimes ,
The more you want to change ,
The more you wouldn't .
Instead ,
The more you don't concentrate on changing ,
The more you would change .


Well , What can i say ?
The power of love ?

My goodness ,
Dreamt of my baby last night ,
He came back already ,
I was waiting for him at the airport .
Lol ?

And then ..
And then my mum woke me up .
Zzz .


Feels like i don't have a life man ,
Everyday is passing just like that .
I'm bored ,
Seriously .


But at least i have things that i need to do next week ,
1. Kenrick's chalet
2. Fetching my baby from the airport
3. Buying present
(:

You know what bothers me so much ?
Her .
Him .
& the kind of fucking stares i get from those bloody people !



Oh yea ,
Wanna know one more thing that bothers me so much that it hurts ?

Wanting it ,
But yet hating to want it ,
Because i'd get affected by the peeps around .

Was out slacking today .

First was Westmall ,
BPP ,
Then to Pet's .

After that ,
Went to 324 ,
Met up with Jasmine , Bernard , Eric & another guy . ( Forgot his name . )
Then all of us went to 417 void deck to slack .

Sharon , Wei Qiang , Shan Hui & one more guy popped by for a short while .
Sharon arh Sharon ~
Tsk !
:DD

Then Wei siong dropped by too .

It has been a long time since i slacked with a big group of peeps .
:D



Bernard & Eric are like so ' Jek Ark ' when they talk to jasmine .
Hmm..
Resembles my very ' Jek Ark ' friend ,
Stef .
(:



Cheer up girl !
That bloody asshole ain't worth crying for !
Damn useless too .
You can easily find one better than that bastard .

EMO-ish .
Can somebody please tickle me ??




Was at the East side today ,
Sort of ,
Erm ,
Loitering ?
And job-hunt of course .


Met up with Kelvin Yeo & gang .
Comments ?
Damn lots !
But i'll just cut it short .
His friend is more of a boyfirend to her ,
Than Kelvin himself .

Yea ,
I know .
Can't really blame him ,
But ,
I'd still blame him .

EMO-ed today .
I've got two reasons for that ,
1. I miss him !
2. I'm damn tired !


I stayed home today .
Oh my ,
What the hell is wrong with me ?!


This morning ,
I lied on my mum's bed .
Don't know why ,
I felt like crying .
o.O

My god ,
My frozen heart is melting .

Anyway ,
Just came back from IMM ,
Had dinner there .

On the way home ,
In the car ,
I was looking at the sky .


And i'd never noticed that the sky was so beautiful .

你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续




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★ KEAN ★

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Until i met you.



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