Monday, December 15, 2008
I made another mistake.
I should never have helped her to even borrow any cash from anybody.
Yea,
She tried to get cash from me,
But didn't manage to.
Okay fine,
I did try to help at first.
But what my friends all told me was right.
Guess i was stupid yea?
She used my name as a mortage.
She borrowed cash from Aunty Lucy.
3 different stories.
3 different persons.
A friend.
A god-mum.
A lover.
Who would you believe?
Hurts so bad.
I should never have helped right from the beginning.
I've done myself in this time.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Made a TERRIBLE MISTAKE.
Only 3 sentences repeats in my mind.
"I'm done for."
"No hope."
"It's time for my death."
Dinner & Kbox after work.
I know i'll regret,
So i went.
It wasn't totally because of what Mark said.
I don't wanna make the same mistake again,
I don't like to be given the cold treatment.
Why push me away because you're afraid of something which may not even happen.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
I'll be waiting.
No matter how long it takes,
I gotta be strong.
Friday, December 5, 2008
Last night.
Was my fault.
Where can you find a girlfriend who still can sleep peacefully,
When her guy is somewhere out there fighting or god knows what happened to him?
Let me tell you a secret,
You can stop looking.
Cause you've already found her.
That's me.
I won't ask for your forgiveness,
Because,
Even i can't forgive myself.
All i can say now is,
Dear, I'm sorry.
I'm not okay.
I may look alright when i'm in Bugis,
I may look alright when i'm talking to my friends.
But that's only during the day.
But at night,
I would still be alone.
ALONE = EMO
At first i always thought,
My own problems,
I will settle myself.
Then only i found out,
Sometimes i still need others to help me out.
You know when's the best time to get me to hard labour?
When i'm in a bad mood.
Because i won't have any feelings,
As in physically.
I carried the large drawers out of the shop today.
Yup,
That bloody drawer.
Which was always damn freaking heavy to me,
Which i would always drag out.
Now i finally know that its not heavy at all can.
Zzz.
Same goes to the shelf which we put the Ferdoras on.
Yea,
I seriously dunno what the hell am i talking about.
