Saturday, November 29, 2008
I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
What the fuck la.
Feeling damn fucking frustrated right now,
For don't know what bloody reason.
Ever since i left Bugis.
Vulgarities are flooding my brain.
Wa lao.
It's not what i want can.
I don't wanna keep silent too alright.
What the hell.
Fuck it la.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Yea,
It's true that i don't know what are you thinking.
But from the look in your eyes,
When you asked me to bring her fan to you,
It looks like as if you're still longing for her return.
I don't blame you.
She's the person you used to love the most.
What's wrong with bringing her fan home,
Whether as a memorable gift or whatever.
Because avoiding the memories won't make you forget.
Unless you can face the memories & forget them,
That's truely forgetting a person.
Like what you said to me before,
"Don't delete it, if you can't bear to."
If you can't bear to throw the fan away or do whatever you want with it,
Then keep it.
I still remembered that i received the wrong information from a person,
Saying that she texted you.
For that entire day,
I kept thinking that,
If you really wanted to go back by her side,
I'll never blame you.
No matter what,
You still used to love her the most,
You could do anything for her.
Even if she dumped you before,
You would still go back to her side.
Yea,
You did say that i'm the first who could replace her.
I could,
But i have not.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
5 days.
I thought i was the only who actually noticed.
Yea,
So what if i was feeling miserable for these 5 days.
I cannot let this affect me so much.
Cause there will be more obstacles coming up.
I've been telling myself all day that,
It's bad enough that we don't have time for each other,
Why must i still pull a long face in front of you?
In fact,
I should treasure every minute and every second of the time when i'm with you.
I got to cheer myself up.
It's such a miracle that i'm actually doing this.
Cause i'm a person that won't hide my mood.
I just wanna say that,
I'm really fucking sorry for shouting at you.
Maybe i lost control of my emotions.
I really didn't mean it.
Sorry.
But i'm suuper glad i didn't end up like your ex.
Lastly,
I wanna say,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JASMINE & MIYUBI!
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Maybe i shouldn't have said that?
Maybe i've said the wrong thing again.
I don't blame you for doubting,
People doubt others so that they can protect themselves.
Nevermind.
It's..alright..
Family problems have been cleared.
I should stop thinking so much.
Even the slightest goodbye...
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Suckkky day @ work.
Yea,
So what if i'm like that?
Why can't you accept it?
"Getting from bad to worst"
"Trying out new stuffs"
"Doing illegal things"
Yes,
I do come home very late every night.
But i've been coming home earlier recently.
I cab home every night using my own money.
What's wrong with that?
Yes,
It's a waste of money.
But isn't that what money is used for?
& what the hell do you mean by "Trying out new stuffs"?
That's fucking rude can.
My love life doesn't have to be exactly the same or even similar to yours.
Cause if it is,
I'd rather commit suicide.
"Illegal things"
Yea right.
If it's illegal,
Why don't you call the police & put me in a home or whatever bloody shit?
What the fuck man.
I don't understand why do you guys have so many objections.
No matter what you guys are gonna do to me,
I still won't change my mind.
I've already made up my mind.
& no one can change it.
And damn it,
The small bottle keychain you bought for me,
When you were in Genting,
BROKE!
I don't know how my bloody phone dropped on the stupid floor,
Then..PIANG!!!
Wa lao.
The first thing i thought of was why did it drop.
Was it fate?
Did something happen to you?
That was the reason i kept asking ' Are you alright? '.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Left home pretty late today.
Was using the computer this morning.
Reading Wen QIng's blog.
My mood changed, Bohdoh.
For the entire day.
Ting ting & Zhen min kept asking what's wrong.
Yea,
If i didn't read her blog,
My mood wouldn't be like this.
But at least i know the truth.
Maybe i just can't stand that you had been shared & passed down.
No matter what,
The jacket i hug to sleep every night,
The Adidas watch i wear almost everyday,
The person whom i like,
The person whom i concern the most,
All used to belong to someone else.
Yea,
It's really stupid of me actually.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Be brave, my dear.
Truth will reveal itself yea?
You just have to wait,
But how long more?
Saturday, November 1, 2008
I was freaking paranoid today.
Over reacted.
Sorry.
Kenrick & Fayme dropped by today.
My gosh,
Bro!!!
You look so gorgeous wearing the eyeliners.
LOL!
Theresa & her husband popped by too.
Her hair,
So short.
My god.
Haven't seen her in a like damn long time.
After work,
When i was @ the control station.
Received a message from,
Asking where was i.
I thought maybe you were coming for me or something.
Wishing you would appear.
Then i waited.
Even if you told me you were eating @ some place else,
I still waited.
Ki siao.
Wait & wait for half an hour.
Why?
Don't know.
Tonnes of stuffs happened these few days.
There was a suprise birthday balloon for my Qing Yi.
Happy Birthday!
(:
Then there was ALOT of unhappy stuffs.
Like family, piercings & relationships.
I was in a SUPER BAD MOOD this afternoon.
Because of what?
My piercings.
Wa lao.
Just the thought of it makes my blood boil.
I even feel irritated typing about it can.
NO PIERCINGS = NO LIFE
Damn angry cause i can't do the things that i love,
I've waited for like a damn fucking long time.
Damn it!
I love piercings,
But then how the fuck do you want me to choose between you & piercings?
I can only choose one leh.
CB.
If i choose piercing then i'll be fucking angry cause i'll lose you.
If i choose you then i'll be fucking angry cause i can't pierce.
DAMN FUCKING FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!!!!!!
Like that also cannot.
Like this also cannot,
What the fuck la!
NBKNNCCB.
& i got NOWHERE to take out my anger on!!!
Damn angry right now,
Which also explains the hurtful words.
When a person is angry,
They'll never think clearly,
& say whatever that comes to their mind.
So,
Don't mind me yea?
